whilst we waited for our lunch, we had tea

whilst we waited for our lunch, we had tea
Originally uploaded by paintMonkey.

the new contender, jimmytofu, takes the wiiboxing title a little too easily for comfort

the new contender, jimmytofu, takes the wiiboxing title a little too easily for comfort
Originally uploaded by paintMonkey.

a blow to the chin and this paintMonkey was KO'd in the first round... DragonDrop lasted a little longer against the kung fu powerhouse darkhorse that is JimmyTofu, but not much longer though.

what have you been doing to look for work Mr Monkey?

what have you been doing to look for work Mr Monkey?
Originally uploaded by paintMonkey.

"erm..." i replied.

Erm indeed.
The longer this 'Welfare-Flavoured-Sabbatical' of mine goes on, the more difficult it gets. Its like trying to run through treacle.
The difficulties do not lie in finding work as such - there's no denying that there is work out there that i am more than capable of doing - the difficulties are in my own response to the 'sabbatical' itself, the isolation, the insecurities, the loneliness of it and the fact that all the silences of that solitude deafens me...or do i just have my fingers in my ears, its hard to tell anymore.
I dont know for sure whether I am here by my own design or i am here by circumstance and karma?
I feel emotionally flat packed i suppose. Boxed and ready for a random someone/anyone to take me home and reconstruct, only for them to find that significant pieces are missing, whilst insignificant pieces are duplicated three or four times. So there i am, unequipped and incapable of operating to the specifications laid out in the glossy photos in the catalogue....doomed to be returned to the warehouse or worse...
So to answer the question ; Erm.... i've been pondering about the facetiousness of the modern job market, the lies we are all encouraged to tell, the make-up and masks we are told to wear... i might as well become a jobbing actor. Ooh... now thats not such bad idea, do you have a reference number for that?

some of the world walks by a hand held Colin (the camera), capaccino and some niggling doubts....

some of the world walks by a hand held Colin (the camera), capaccino and some niggling doubts....
Originally uploaded by paintMonkey.

...niggling doubts that we all have i guess. The "what?"'s, 'why?"'s and 'Am I?"'s of our vanity filled, media fuelled and indifferently complacent lives...
i've had a lot of time to review and consider stuff over the last year or so, i thought it'd do me some good to get a perspective on a few things . So far, the perspective has only shown me that things appear to taper off into the distance, apparently meeting just beyond the horizon. But of course they don't. Parallel lines remains parallel, the distance between them remains constant and some people, myself included, will not accept they were wrong.
So we carry on, wondering about the "what?"'s, the "why?"'s and the "am I?"'s, hoping the lines will bend inwards just over the horizon. Just as they seem to when you take a good look at them....

we wii'd at dragondrop

we wii'd at dragondrop
Originally uploaded by paintMonkey.

An invite to DragonDrop Centraal could not (and should not) be ignored. A giant cat, good company, beer and balloons were all but eclipsed by Chris bringing his Wii.
Oh the Wii!
I've been dreaming about the Wii since i first heard about them last year, and anyone competent enough to be reading this will no doubt be fully aware of what they do, so i shan't bore you with another review, suffice to say that the evening passed all too quickly and that over the next few months i can see thousands of couch potatos the world over having heart attacks, as they leave their arse groove armchairs to exert some energy for a change. marvellous.

If anyone would like to buy some paintings from me so that i too can join the Wii generation - i wont mind at all. (Would probably help considerably if i actually did some more painting though.)

four people are late for the last supper

four people are late for the last supper
Originally uploaded by paintMonkey.

Not entirely sure how the image is relevant.....

....well, sometimes people just need to be told straight. don't they?
i didn't go 'round there to start a fight, i didn't even go 'round there to tell any home truths. But sometimes there comes a point where there is only so much of someone else's sneering, venomous self denial and delusion that i'm prepared to listen to....I went 'round because she asked me for help, when it came down to it, it wasn't my help she wanted. It was just someone to blame.

tofu ponders at new year

tofu ponders at new year
Originally uploaded by paintMonkey.