It's very lazy of me I know...really I do. But here's the lyrics to my mainstream theme tune for the last month or so.

How dare you say that my behavior is unacceptable,
So condescending unnecessarily critical
I have the tendency of getting very physical
So watch your step cause if I do you'll need a miracle.

You drain me dry and make me wonder why I'm even here,
This double vision I was seeing is finally clear
You want to stay but you know very well I want you gone,
Not fit to fucking tread the ground that I'm walking on.

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up...
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams,
Is there anyone out there? 'cos it's getting harder and harder to breathe.
Is there anyone out there? 'cos it's getting harder and harder to breathe

What you are doing is screwing things up inside my head.
You should know better you never listened to a word I said.
Clutching your pillow and writhing in a naked sweat,
Hoping somebody someday will do you like I did!

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there? 'cos it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there? 'cos it's getting harder and harder to breathe.

Does it kill?
Does it burn?
Is it painful to learn
That it's me that has all the control?

Does it thrill?
Does it sting?
When you feel what I bring
And you wish that you had me to hold?

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams...
Is there anyone out there? cos it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there? cos it's getting harder and harder to breathe.

Lyrics by someone more famous & more successful than me. Not used with permission etc.

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[insert standard blog with relevant details here]... so after an up & down, in & out, wierd weekend, it all turned out rather nicely. Still things remain which will need maintainance and keeping an eye on.
But i'm happy with the way the dust has settled. The weekend which traditionally sets off the starting gun for the Inner Circle's calendar has been fired.

and we're off.

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[insert standard blog with relevant details here]... so after an up & down, in & out, wierd weekend, it all turned out rather nicely. Still things remain which will need maintainance and keeping an eye on.
But i'm happy with the way the dust has settled. The weekend which traditionally sets off the starting gun for the Inner Circle's calendar has been fired.

and we're off.

i'm out. assume i've fucked off south with the geese.

The Art of looking sideways.

° Silent Running Mode Deactivated [beep]
° Holding Patterns Terminated [beep]
° January Survived [tick]

This new house is full of odd new noises.

At this moment I amtrying to work out whethet it is a car outside on the street, it engine running idle, or the radiator in my bedroom that is making *that* humming. The taps, bangs and ticks coming from downstairs are, I have decided, some elves fascinated by the goldfish, my toys and my books. It is the only explanation.
Chambers was finally decommissioned on February 1st at about 1500hrs with the much appreciated help of the 'Red Team'. Fronted up by my good (and helpful) friends the Rev_Dino and Eddie. I was, it must be said, a little bit sad for a moment as I said "stand down" to the empty apartment. It's funny how we become so attached to bricks and mortar.
But now, there is Ei6:Quarters commissioned and ready. It has some stairs (a novelty for me) inside, a 'yarden' outside, a couple of rather exciting sliding doors and a shed. All very exciting, useful and well, brilliant. Quarters is a goodly new Epac Island.

So this week it snowed and the country (embarrassingly) came to a grinding halt. Slack and I took the opportunity to take a brief away mission into the winter wonderland. I took some photos (www.flickr.com/photos/epac_island) as I do.
It was a refreshing and necessary exercise for me, I feel to have been distracted, drained, sucked dry of my perspective and mojo over the last 6 months or so. 'Almost' like someone has been looking over my shoulder constantly or wearing my skin, doing my thing, only badly and without knowing the what's or why's of it all.

That won't be my problem anymore, it'll be someone else's. I can get on with what I do without the dramas of late.

Right it is silly O'clock and I should be sleeping. I have work and stuff to do tomorrow

Seleceted Views From Epac Island.

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