Monday, March 10, 2008

The Resonance of dispassionate resent.

Had a proper frown on for most, if not all of today. Brought on mostly by the dissatisfaction and downright misery of my uninspired office drone existence. I can feel whatever is left of my soul slowly curling up and going into a deep deep coma. That and the fact that my ex had decided to get shirty with me this morning by text. We hadn't fallen out for over a year til this morning, I got the strong impression she was just looking for an opportunity to have a go at me...pah! Women are mental. (men really are bastards)

Sometimes I think the best situation for our daughter would be for her to come live with me, that way her mother could focus on her career, I could be at home in Chambers focusing on mine and moo would feel more secure all round. But that'll never happen. P would see it as defeat and she's way too stubborn to admit defeat...she will, no doubt just do what, in my experience pisceans always do, brush it all under the carpet and ignore the issues, hoping that everything will be forgotten (even though they tend to never forget anything)...pah! Pisceans. Had more than my fair share of pisceans in my life, a sister, a couple of girfriends and a few mates. It may just be that thing of looking for and seeing patterns where none exist, but they are all so similar, in so many ways. Emotionally slippery for example, impossible to pin down. Its all nonsense. Pay it no mind.

I'm a taurus btw. Easily the best star sign to be if you're gonna choose. :p

Weekend was a non event, moo was ill and we bearly left Chambers other than to replenish supplies. We spent the w/e watching Casino Royale a number of times, which is easily the best Bond film, well, we think so anyway.

Right. Might contunue this later. Things a-doing!

3 comments:

Matt said...

I'm a librarian.

Anonymous said...

Temp jobs are notoriously dull and unrewarding. I always had my best daydreams whilst shuffling paper; sometimes just looking for perspective - X amount of people have died today through lack of water, maybe I'm lucky - or simply thinking about a better job, perhaps in a different universe.

I'm twin bulls.

Vapourtrail said...

Treat the job as a means to an end - you won't be there forever. I know how spirit crushing these things can be, so just think 'I am putting up with this during the day, so in the evenings and weekends I can enjoy '.....' and do '.....'. Focus and put your energy into the more important things in your life (i.e. when you've walked out the door at 5:30).

If you need a w'end of R&R in London, buy a £1 Nat. Express coach ticket and get on down here. You are always welcome.

PS. I concur on your Picean analogy. Oh how I concur!